to much

during the holidays it seems like all anyone does it EAT. im sick of it so far in my family we have had like 4 dinners, it just seems like to much. but that's not even the worst part i feel the worst part is the fact that everyone talks. but still not the worst, the worst would have to be he fact that im ignored, not a lot but enough times just this holiday for me to notice it and be depressed by it. it seems everyone has something that defines them such as my brother - he just got back from the army so everyone talks to him about that. sister whitnee - she is getting married so of course that is talked about, and she works at a hospital. other sister kenzie - she is completing her schooling in Geology. my dad - he has his job and all the other stuff he does. my mom - is the gossip queen. but than me at all family parties i get asked if im still at snow and if i like it than everyone is done talking to me. it seems that i have done nothing in my present life that matters :/

but i always have to think of the positive in things so i figure until i do something worth noticing ill just not have to tell people what im up to :)